WHY DO I DO WHAT I HATE?

In his letter to the Roman church, the apostle Paul wrote, “for what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not doing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate… For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want. But if I am doing the very thing I do not want, I am no longer the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me.” (Romans 7:15, Romans 7:19-20)

Like Paul, myself and, many others, struggle with our rebellious natures.
When we fail, we think that we cannot live up to the expectations of God’s laws. We think, ” it’s impossible to do the things that we should do;
Because we do the very things we hate and know are wrong.
And when we mess up, we can often grow weary, and beat ourselves up!
We feel defeated and hopeless and that’s when the evil one whispers in our ear saying, “You’re terrible, worthless and you can’t measure up!”
That could be no further from the truth!
The truth is that, you’re now perfect in God’s eyes by the power of the cross and through the blood of Jesus.

What Does it mean,  ‘What I Want to Do, I Do Not Do, but What I Hate, I Do?

Even a Christian as, mature as Paul felt as we do.
He understood that just because we love God and desire to be like Jesus, we still fall short.  Paul went so far as to call himself the “chief of sinners” (1 Timothy 1:15) and a “wretched man” (Romans 7:24), recognizing that, though God’s way is spiritual, he was not (Romans 7:14).
We all make mistakes and we all sin. We are at constant war with our old, sinful nature and the deceiver, which is fighting to reclaim his place of influence in our lives.

We will never be perfect in this world, if we could achieve perfection, Jesus wouldn’t have had to sacrifice himself for our sins.

His grace is sufficient for all.
The evil one, would have you believe that you’re just not good enough so why try; however, Jesus said, repeat and I’ll forgive you.
That’s it, it’s that easy; however, it must be sincere.

So, don’t beat yourself up. It’s okay to be human.
Remember that we are spiritual beings having a human experience.

I believe that’s why Jesus had said this. “He that is without sin among you, let him cast the first stone at her.” (John 8:7)

This also, in Matthew 7, is a confirmation of His understanding of our weaknesses; moreover, His unconditional love for us.

Matthew 7:1-5
[1] Judge not, that ye be not judged.
[2] For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.
[3] And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye?
[4] Or how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull out the mote out of thine eye; and, behold, a beam is in thine own eye?
[5] Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother’s eye.

THE APOCRYPHA BIBLE

https://www.sacred-texts.com/bib/apo/index.htm

Published on WordPress by Donna Brown Bowles January 16, 2023

Sacred Texts  Bible
The Apocrypha

https://www.sacred-texts.com/bib/apo/index.htm

The Apocrypha refers to texts that are left out of officially sanctioned versions (‘canon’) of the Bible. The term means ‘things hidden away,’ which implies secret or esoteric literature. However, none of these texts were ever considered secret.

In some Protestant Bibles, they are placed between the New and Old Testament. In the Roman Catholic Bibles, the books are interspersed with the rest of the text. In this case, they are also called ‘Deuterocanonical’, which means ‘secondary canon.” The books on this page are all Deuterocanonical.

Jerome rejected the Deuterocanonical books when he was translating the Bible into Latin circa 450 CE (see the Vulgate). This was because no Hebrew version of these texts could be found, even though they were present in the Greek Old Testament (the Septuagint). However, they eventually were accepted by the Church, and most of them remained part of the Bible. Protestants rejected these books during the Reformation as lacking divine authority. They either excised them completely or placed them in a third section of the Bible. The Roman Catholic Council of Trent, on the other hand, declared in 1546 that the Deuterocanonical books were indeed divine.

Of these books, Tobias, Judith, the Wisdom of Solomon, Baruch, and Maccabees remain in the Catholic Bible. First Esdras, Second Esdras, Epistle of Jeremiah, Susanna, Bel and the Dragon, Prayer of Manasseh, Prayer of Azariah, and Laodiceans are not today considered part of the Catholic apocrypha.

With one exception, all of these books are considered ‘Old Testament’. The apocryphal New Testament ‘Letter of Paul to the Laodiceans’ was once incorporated in many versions of the Bible. However, Laodiceans is now considered just a pastiche of other Epistles and is omitted from contemporary Bibles.

There are many other apocryphal books that do not fall into the ‘Deuterocanonical’ category, such as the many additional New Testament Gospels and the apocalyptic book of Enoch. Some of these can be found in the Apocrypha section.

1 Esdras
2 Esdras
Additions to Esther
1 Macabees
2 Macabees
Tobias
Judith
Wisdom
Sirach
Baruch
Epistle of Jeremiah
Susanna
Prayer of Azariah
Prayer of Manasseh
Bel and the Dragon
Laodiceans

Can UC what I C 2…

SOME PEOPLE ARE SO POOR THAT’S ALL THEY HAVE IS MONEY

SOME PEOPLE ARE SO POOR THAT’S ALL THEY HAVE IS MONEY

Published from WordPress by Donna Brown Bowles October 30, 2022

There was this rich man and he had a son.
His son didn’t seem to appreciate the riches that they had. So, he decided to take his son on a trip to a poor village and spend some time with a family that was very poor, in hopes that his son would then appreciate their great riches.
So they spent a week with this family and when they returned home, he asked his son what he had learned from this and, his son replied:

We have one dog.
They have four.

We have pools.
They have rivers and streams.

We have lamps at night.
They have stars.

We buy food.
They grow theirs.

We have alarms to keep us safe.
They have God and friends.

We have a big screen TV that we sit in front of.
The sit by campfires sharing stories with family and friends.

We have great walls to protect us.

They have Jesus to protect them.

Then the boy said, “Thanks dad for showing me how poor we are.”

BEL AND THE DRAGON

Watch Daniel And The Lion’s Den. The real story.

By Flat water Flat Earth
Published on WordPress
By Donna Brown Bowles

Babel and confusion.
They lie so much
people can’t see for their “beliefs”. Look
at the evidence. Weigh it. Use
discernment. When one person says
dinosaur, it’s just another way of saying
dragon. Dinosaur means terrible lizard.
There were big lizards living
contemporary with mankind, not millions
or billions of years. Job and even Enoch
mention Behemoth and Leviathan.
Science uses big lizards to try to prove
evolution, so anything that proves the
Bible, they deny.
King Nebuchadnezzar, Daniel And The
story of Bel And The Dragon read from
Old Greek, then Theodotian text, from the
Septuagint.
At 00:56 seconds we see a photo of the
idol named bel, Baal or ba’al, who is one
of the main deity’s worshipped by several
ancient eastern nations. It is this idol to
whom many people would sacrifice their
infants, by throwing them into an
immolation pit (in other words a burnt
offering, or holocaust), or by placing
them into a huge metal furnace inside of
a statue of the deity. (Much like “the
cremation of care” at bohemian grove)
At 1:43 To 1:52 The Temple Of Uru
(Temple of Ur, in Ur-Chaldea, or
Ur-Chaldees, Iraq, Modern Day Babylon,
the picture shown might even be the idols
temple described in this text)
At 2:04 bel/ ba’al/ Baal

At 2:22 minutes The Blue Gate of Babylon, with a
Dinosaur as one of the creatures in the
mosaics. If you pause, you’ll see
it’s clearly a brontosaurus type of animal.
It has a very long tail which is inline with
the spine all the way to the head. A
gigantic creature, with a very long tail and
a very long neck, scales and claws on its
rear feet.

The GOSPEL of NICODEMUS, formerly called the ACTS of PONTIUS PILATE.

Published from WordPress by Donna Brown Bowles May 29, 2022 CHAP. XXII.https://www.sacred-texts.com/bib/lbob/lbob10.htm

This is the first and last chapter’s.

[Although this Gospel is, by some
among the learned, supposed to
have been really written by
Nicodemus, who became a disciple.
of Jesus Christ, and conversed
with him; others conjecture that
it was a forgery towards the close.
of the third century by some
zealous believer, who observing
that there had been appeals made
by the Christians of the former
age, to the Acts of Pilate, but
that such Acts could not be
produced, imagined it would be of
service to Christianity to
fabricate and publish this Gospel;
as it would both confirm the
Christians under persecution, and
convince the Heathens of the truth
of the Christian religion. The
Rev. Jeremiah Jones says, that
such pious frauds were very common
among Christians even in the first
three centuries; and that a
forgery of this nature, with the
view above mentioned, seems
natural and probable. The same
author, in noticing that Eusebius,
in his Ecclesiastical history,
charges the Pagans with having
forged and published a book,
called “The Acts of Pilate,” takes
occasion to observe, that the
internal evidence of this Gospel
produced, imagined it would be of
service to Christianity to
fabricate and publish this Gospel;
as it would both confirm the
Christians under persecution, and
convince the Heathens of the truth
of the Christian religion.
Rev. Jeremiah Jones says, that
such pious frauds were very common
among Christians even in the first
three centuries; and that a
forgery of this nature, with the
view above mentioned, seems
natural and probable. The same
author, in noticing that Eusebius,
in his Ecclesiastical history,
charges the Pagans with having
forged and published a book,
called “The Acts of Pilate,” takes
occasion to observe, that the
internal evidence of this Gospel
shows it was not the work of any
Heathen; but that if in the latter
end of the third century we find
it in use among Christians (as it
was then certainly in some
churches) and about the same time
find a forgery of the Heathens
under the same title, it seems
exceedingly probable that some
Christians, at that time, should
publish such a piece as this, in
order partly to confront the
spurious one of the Pagans, and
partly to support those appeals
which had been made by former
Christians to the Acts of Pilate;
and Mr. Jones says, he thinks so
more particularly as we have
innumerable instances of forgeries
by the faithful in the primitive
ages, grounded on less plausible
reasons. Whether it be canonical
or not, it is of very great
antiquity, and is appealed to by
several of the ancient Christians.
The present translation is made
from the Gospel published by
Grynæus in the Orthodoxographa,
vol. i. tom. ii. p. 643.]
p. 64






This is the most extraordinary book I have ever read from the Apocrypha; “The Lost Books of the Bible.”
It’s 22 chapters.  I put the last chapter  Because it’s extremely important and amazing; however, the entire book is extraordinary!
I’ve included a link that takes you to the entire Book of THE GOSPEL OF NICODEMUS.
If you have the time please read this book. You will be amazed at how much information the elite has hidden from us for hundreds of years.

The GOSPEL of NICODEMUS, formerly called the ACTS of PONTIUS PILATE.

CHAP. XXII.https://www.sacred-texts.com/bib/lbob/lbob10.htm

1 Pilate goes to the temple; calls together the rulers, and scribes, and doctors. 2 Commands the gates to be shut; orders the book of the Scripture; and causes the Jews to relate what they really knew concerning Christ. 14 They declare that they crucified Christ in ignorance, and that they now know him to be the Son of God, according to the testimony of the Scriptures; which, after they put him to death, they are examined.

AFTER these things Pilate went to the temple of the Jews, and called together all the rulers and scribes, and doctors of the law, and went with them into a chapel of the temple.
2 And commanding that all the gates should be shut, said to them, I have heard that ye have a certain large book in this temple; I desire you therefore, that it may be brought before me.
3 And when the great book, carried by four ministers of the temple, and adorned with gold and precious stones, was brought, Pilate said to them all, I adjure you by the God of your Fathers, who made and commanded this temple to be built, that ye conceal not the truth from me.
4 Ye know all the things which are written in that book; tell me therefore now, if ye in the Scriptures have found any thing of that Jesus whom ye crucified, and at what time of the world he ought to have come: shew it me.

5 Then having sworn Annas and Caiaphas, they commanded all the rest who were with them to go out of the chapel.
6 And they shut the gates of the temple and of the chapel, and said to Pilate, Thou hast made us to swear, O judge, by the building of this temple, to declare to thee that which is true and right.
7 After we had crucified Jesus, not knowing that he was the Son of God, but supposing he wrought his miracles by some magical arts, we summoned a large assembly in this temple.
8 And when we were deliberating among one another about
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the miracles which Jesus had wrought, we found many witnesses of our own country, who declared that they had seen him alive after his death, and that they heard him discoursing with his disciples, and saw him ascending unto the height of the heavens, and entering into them;
9 And we saw two witnesses, whose bodies Jesus raised from the dead, who told us of many strange things which Jesus did among the dead, of which we have a written account in our hands.

10 And it is our custom annually to open this holy book before an assembly, and to search there for the counsel of God.
11 And we found in the first of the seventy books, where Michael the archangel is speaking to the third son of Adam the first man, an account that after five thousand five hundred years, Christ the most beloved Son of God was come on earth,
12 And we further considered, that perhaps he was the very God of Israel who spoke to Moses, Thou shalt make the ark of the testimony; two cubits and a half shall be the length thereof, and a cubit and a half the breadth thereof, and a cubit and a half the height thereof. 1
13 By these five cubits and a half for the building of the ark of the Old Testament, we perceived and knew that in five thousand years and a half (one thousand) years, Jesus Christ was to come in the ark or tabernacle of a body;.

14 And so our scriptures testify that he is the son of God, and the Lord and King of Israel.
15 And because after his suffering, our chief priests were surprised at the signs which were wrought by his means, we opened that book to search all the generations down to the generation of Joseph and Mary the mother of Jesus, supposing him to be of the seed of David;
16 And we found the account of the creation, and at what time he made the heaven and the earth and the first man Adam, and that from thence to the flood, were two thousand, two hundred and twelve years.
17 And from the flood to Abraham, nine hundred and twelve. And from Abraham to Moses, four hundred and thirty. And from Moses to David the king, five hundred and ten.
18 And from David to the Babylonish captivity, five hundred years. And from the Babylonish captivity to the incarnation of Christ, four hundred years.
19 The sum of all which amounts to five thousand and half (a thousand).
20 And so it appears, that Jesus whom we crucified, is Jesus Christ the Son of God, and true and Almighty God. Amen.

In the name of the Holy Trinity, thus end the Acts of our Saviour Jesus Christ, which the Emperor Theodosius the Great found at Jerusalem, in the hall of Pontius Pilate among the public records; the things were acted in the nineteenth year of Tiberius Cæsar, Emperor of the Romans, and in the seventeenth year of the government of Herod the son of Herod king of Galilee, on the eighth of the calends of April, which is the twenty-third 
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day of the month of March, in the CCIId Olympiad, when Joseph and Caiaphas were Rulers of the Jews; being a History written in Hebrew by Nicodemus, of what happened after our Saviour’s crucifixion.

Read original article here in it’s entirely…

https://www.sacred-texts.com/bib/lbob/lbob10.htm

IT MAY BE TIME TO RECOVER YOUR SKY

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It once gave you the wings to fly, then it took away your sky.

A need to survive.

The sky mirrors as a witness of your trials alone, on nights so dark they must not be shown.

All the tears you cried in silence.

All the pain you ever felt.

And all the isolation you had endured, even the times you wept, afraid and, alone.

My only wish was that your pain be mine.

I’m sorry I can’t turn back the time.

You were frozen by fear that you’d succeed but afraid you would crumble if you failed.

The heaviness you could not bear and the weight of it all broke you.

My heart hurts to remember but I cannot forget.

Falling and not knowing who would catch you, not knowing when HE warned.

Your fight was fought by you alone but little did you know God had already calmed your storm.

There were times that you stumbled out of control.

And times that you really wanted to know.

Your spirit kept seeking light from the storm.

Obsidian Skies became a clue

That it may be a time to turn anew.

Its time for you to realize

God has given you back your sky.

Fly…

Posted from WordPress
[by Donna Brown Bowles (C) 2014] revised 11/182019

I love you my beautiful daughter forever and always ❤

Unconditionally 💜

Finding Truth with Zen Garcia

I would like to introduce you to new way of finding truth with Zen Garcia, author and publisher of several books (20+) of ancient theologies with esoteric topics such as:
The Gnostics ; apocryphal scriptures; Lost Books Of The Bible; The Forgotten Books Of Eden; The Dead Sea Scrolls and more…

With skillfull articulation, Zen demonstrates how we have been manipulated from the beginning by comparing lost books of bible with the KJV bible to confirm their validity with elaboration.

Zen has spent many years meticulously researching various historical theologies. His findings of truth are astounding and as a direct result, has encountered opposition and ridicule not, only from the secular side but, the religious side as well.

Truth can be threatening to those who stand to gain without it.
In opposition, it would be unbearable to those who are unwilling to accept that they have been beguiled.

With fine articulation, Zen demonstrates how we have been manipulated from the beginning and the enemies agenda and explains how to endeavor freedom one compelling page at a time.

But, let me warn you first.
This information is for Truth seekers only.
If you are unwilling to embrace truth this is not the place for you.

I’ll share my story from the beginning when I first discovered the truth with Zen Garcia to explain why it’s neccessary to be ready to receive the truth.

My story,

It was almost two years ago that I had stumbled upon Zen; I believe it was by divine intervention. I was desperately searching for truth for many years when one morning I felt compelled to search, once more.
I turned on YouTube and discovered Zen.
He was discussing vaccinations with Laurel Austin, who has done in-depth studies on vaccines, and is a wellness writer and co-host for Zen Garcia.
I was stunned as I listened to their experiences, and their expertise as they examined these controversial issues with such tenacity.

I was convinced and inspired. Over the next few days I had watched as many of Zen’s YouTube videos as possible.
Including several topics and books that Zen had written:
“A Different Way of Being, Lucifer – Father of Cain, Awaken to the NWO, Sons of God: Who We Are Why We Are Here, Skyfalll- Angels of Destiny., The Aramaic Targum, and, The Flat Earth as Key to Decrypt the Book of Enoch.”

As I pondered all that I had learned, I became overwhelmed
I sat alone in silence and cried. I was angry and I came to the conclusion that everything I had ever learned was a lie, I discovered that the religious institutions as, well as our educational systems, were nothing more than a great deception. Their goal was to dumb us down and indoctrinate us in order to divide and conquer.
I wanted to scream to illustrate my burden but, there weren’t any words to describe how I felt.

I felt as though I had lived my entire life in a dreamland and then awakened to live the final nightmare!
I discovered the plans of the elite and how they had controlled us, what their wicked plans were, and how easily manipulated I was.
The thought of it all left me broken but not defeated!

I knew I could no longer sleep nor dream their visions and with no other alternative but to face reality, I surrendered…

For the first time I opened my eyes and saw a new world unfamiliar yet meaningful, hopeless now hopeful; moreover ,
I found the truth with my Savior, the Son of YHWH, Yeshua the one and only true living God.💕

Morning came and I began my journey of a thousand miles down the rabbit hole with Zen Garcia and Yesuah as our guide.

It was then that I discovered; nightmares only happen when you close your eyes.

“With eyes wide open” only now was I able to see that nothing was and, nothing is, what it appears to be. And the God that I never understood; I was beginning to understand.

So I chose to embrace truth and…

Endeavor

Freedom

Eyes

Wide

Open

With

Yahweh

and

Zen

Garcia

Find Zen Garcia at https://www.fallenangelstv.com/https://www.fallenangelstv.com/

Books http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/zengarcia

Zen Garcia Endeavor Freedom on Youtube

DREAMS~°•○●☆~

DREAMS

_____________________

I fell asleep one night.

I fell deep unto my dream,

in a place absent of time.

When your heart was free and your spirit was kind.

Serenity and peace set you apart.

I became frozen in place in time, absent of meaning, transparent hearts of plastic that gave me the ability to see truth but not feel it.

Frightened, I screamed!

I awoke, only to find a mirrored reflection of someone I used to know.

Dreams, what do they mean…

Words Are A Matter of perception… 

Words matter…. or do they…? 

Let’s explore this thought for a minute. 
Words don’t matter when spoken in an abstruse parlance; it’s of no consequence to the audience who fell hostage to the laborious speaker who’s only intention is to appear brilliant and legendary. This cosmetic boast renders only superficial words astray of substance and meaning leaving the audience perplexed and depleted. 

Words do matter when spoken with sincerity in thoughtful consideration absent of pride and spoken in humility. It is as music to the ear of the beholder creating an atmosphere of curiosity, and meaningful experiences that embrace the hearts and minds of the audience. It leaves a lasting impression of why words matter, not only for the speaker, but for the audience as well. 

Words are a matter of perception… 

IF YOU STEAL…

 https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pitcher_plant

If you steal from me it’s okay. 

I’m only passing through. 

My heart never belonged to you anyway. 

This world was not my intention. 

My empathy for you I’ll mention.

Briefly,  but sincere. 

Poetry (C) Donna, Brown, Bowles 

Our Father Is Coming Be Ready

Matthew 24:4-14

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And Jesus answered and said to them,
“See to it that no one misleads you.
For many will come in My name, saying,
‘I am the Christ,’ and will mislead many.
You will be hearing of wars and rumors of wars.
See that you are not frightened, for those things must take place,
but that is not yet the end.
For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom,
and in various places there will be famines and earthquakes.
But all these things are merely the beginning of birth pangs.

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THEN THEY WILL DELIVER YOU TO TRIBULATION, AND WILL KILL YOU,
AND YOU WILL BE HATED BY ALL NATIONS BECAUSE OF MY NAME.

At that time many will fall away and will betray one another
and hate one another.
Many false prophets will arise and will mislead many.
Because lawlessness is increased,
most people’s love will grow cold.

But the one who endures to the end, he will be saved.

This gospel of the kingdom shall be preached in the whole world
as a testimony to all the nations, and then the end will come.

So my brother’s and sister’s we must stay close to our Father in Heaven because greater is HE that is within me than he that is in the world.

Therefore Put On 🕇🕆🕇
The Whole Armour Of God.

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Ephesians 6:10-24

[10] Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.

[11] Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.

[12] For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

[13] Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

[14] Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;

[15] And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;

[16] Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.

[17] And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:

[18] Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;

[19] And for me, that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldly, to make known the mystery of the gospel,

[20] For which I am an ambassador in bonds: that therein I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.

[21] But that ye also may know my affairs, and how I do, Tychicus, a beloved brother and faithful minister in the Lord, shall make known to you all things:

[22] Whom I have sent unto you for the same purpose, that ye might know our affairs, and that he might comfort your hearts.

[23] Peace be to the brethren, and love with faith, from God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.

[24] Grace be with all them that love our Lord Jesus Christ in sincerity. Amen.

A Day In May…

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I must say, I feel as though it’s our last May to remember…

Prepare your hearts and surrender…

It’s time to choose sides and choose wisely because there are only two sides to one Great story…

Light or darkness…
Truth or lies
Good or evil…
Life or death…

You decide…