KELLEN THE LABRADOODLE, I LOVE YOU

In 2015 I went to visit my daughter’s in Portland Oregon.
My grandson had a beautiful labradoodle service animal.
His name was Kellen.
He was extremely intelligent, kind and so sweet. I fell in love with him quickly.
He was beyond precious.

I was there for about a month and Kellen and I became best friends, emotionally connected for sure.

The day I was leaving, Kellen and I were alone for my daughter had to run some errands.
I sat next to Kellen in a quiet room by the window.
I told him that I had to leave now but that I loved him and that I would never forget him.
I hugged him for a while  then I tried to look into his eyes like I usually did but, Kellen wouldn’t look at me, he just kept staring out the window.
He knew that I was leaving before I told him.
He knew that I would never  return.
He just kept looking out the window while I whispered, “I’m sorry, I love you Kellen.
I finished my goodbyes as I hugged him for the last time.
My ride knocked at the door and I quickly took  this last photo of him and cried…
My heart was broken as,  was his.
I’ve always wondered what he was thinking that on that day I went away.
Every time I look at this precious moment in time.
My heart hurts and I wish I would have stayed.

A few weeks ago I got a call from my daughter saying that Kellen was very ill and it’s due to old age.
The veterinarian said that he doesn’t have long to live and I have no words…

Just heartache and tears …

I’m sorry Kellen and I will always love you….

May GOD be with you till we meet again…

PEARLS ARE THE PRODUCT OF PAIN

Published at WordPress. By Donna Brown, Bowles

The oyster and its pearl.
Pearls are the product of pain. For some unknown reason, the shell of the oyster gets pierced and an alien substance-a grain of sand-slips inside. On the entry of that foreign irritant, all the resources within the tiny, sensitive oyster rush to the spot and begin to release healing fluids that otherwise would have remained dormant. By and by the irritant is covered and the wound is healed and a pearl is born.

No other gem has so fasci-
nating a history. It is the symbol of stress-a healed wound… a precious, tiny jewel conceived through irritation, born of adversity, nursed by adjustments. Had there been no wounding, no irritating or interruption,
there could have been no pearl.

Some oysters are never wounded… and those who seek for gems toss them aside, fit only for stew.


J. B. Phillips must have realized this as he paraphrased James 1:2-4:
When all kinds of trials crowd into your lives, my brothers.
don’t resent them as intruders, but welcome them as friends!
Realize that they have come to test your endurance. Let the
process go on until that endurance is fully developed, and you will find you have become men and women of mature character.

IT MAY BE TIME TO RECOVER YOUR SKY

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It once gave you the wings to fly, then it took away your sky.

A need to survive.

The sky mirrors as a witness of your trials alone, on nights so dark they must not be shown.

All the tears you cried in silence.

All the pain you ever felt.

And all the isolation you had endured, even the times you wept, afraid and, alone.

My only wish was that your pain be mine.

I’m sorry I can’t turn back the time.

You were frozen by fear that you’d succeed but afraid you would crumble if you failed.

The heaviness you could not bear and the weight of it all broke you.

My heart hurts to remember but I cannot forget.

Falling and not knowing who would catch you, not knowing when HE warned.

Your fight was fought by you alone but little did you know God had already calmed your storm.

There were times you stumbled out of control.

And times that you really wanted to know.

Your spirit kept seeking light from the storm.

Obsidian Skies became a clue

That it might be a time to turn anew.

Its time for you to realize

God has given YOU back your sky.
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[by Donna Brown Bowles (C) 2014] revised 11/182019

I love you my beautiful daughter forever and always ❤

Unconditionally 💜

I AM SO SORRY

Levi, I’m so  sorry that  you couldn’t be here on your birthday.

I’m so sorry that I couldn’t tell you how precious your spirit was from the time that you were born.

I’m so sorry that I let you down.

I’m sorry that I didn’t ask you to come home.

I’m so sorry that I didn’t pray on the night you went away.

I’m so sorry that I couldn’t be there to hold you when you were all alone…

I’m sorry that you had to leave this world alone…

I’m sorry for not telling you how much I loved you and how important you were to me.

I’m so sorry that you couldn’t be here on your birthday so I could hug you through all those sad times..

I am so sorry that I cannot see your smile one last time…

R. I. P. my son…
I’ll see you soon…

Love always and forever,  no matter what ,
Regretfully,
Mom.

PUT ON THE WHOLE ARMOUR OF GOD

Ephesians 6:10-18 King James Version (KJV)

Posted by Donna Brown Bowles

PUT ON THE WHOLE ARMOUR OF GOD

10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.

11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.

12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;

15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;

16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.

17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:

18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;

The ACTS of PAUL and THECLA.

This apocrypha is an extraordinary story and has inspired me greatly. The power of Jesus, the Son of God and the only true living God is shown in this wonderful apocrypha.

This story details, in my opinion, what a real feminist is. Her strength, courage and integrity could only come from a life devoted to God. Please read it in its entirety from the 1st. Chapter. Link below.

CHAP. IX.

1 Thecla thrown naked to the wild beasts; 2 they all refuse to attack her; 8 throws herself into a pit of water. 10 other wild beasts refuse her. 11 Tied to wild bulls. 13 Miraculously saved. 15 Released. 24 Entertained by Trifina.

THEN Thecla was taken out of the hand of Trifina, stripped naked, had a girdle put on, and thrown into the place appointed for fighting with the beasts: and the lions and the bears were let loose upon her.

2 But a she-lion, which was of all the most fierce, ran to Thecla, and fell down at her feet. Upon which the multitude of women shouted aloud.

3 Then a she-bear ran fiercely towards her; but the she-lion met the bear, and tore it to pieces.

4 Again, a he-lion, who had been wont to devour men, and which belonged to Alexander, ran towards her; but the she-lion encountered the he-lion, and they killed each other.

5 Then the women were under a greater concern, because the she-lion, which had helped Thecla, was dead.

6 Afterwards they brought out many other wild beasts; but Thecla stood with her hands stretched towards heaven, and prayed; and when she had done praying, she turned about, and saw a pit of water, and said, Now it is a proper time for me to be baptized.

7 Accordingly she threw herself into the water, and said, In thy name, O my Lord Jesus Christ, I am this last day baptized. The women and the people seeing this, cried out, and said, Do not throw yourself into the water. And the governor himself cried out, to think that the fish (sea-calves) were like to devour so much beauty.

8 ¶ Notwithstanding all this, Thecla threw herself into the water, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

9 But the fish (sea-calves,) when they saw the lighting and fire, were killed, and swam dead upon the surface of the water, and a cloud of fire surrounded

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Thecla, so that as the beasts could not come near her, so the people could not see her nakedness.

10 Yet they turned other wild beasts upon her; upon which they made a very mournful outcry; and some of them scattered spikenard, others cassia, others amomus (a sort of spikenard, or the herb of Jerusalem, or ladies-rose) others ointment; so that the quantity of ointment was large, in proportion to the number of people; and upon this all the beasts lay as though they had been fast asleep, and did not touch Thecla.

11 Whereupon Alexander said to the Governor, I have some very terrible bulls; let us bind her to them. To which the governor, with concern, replied, You may do what you think fit.

12 Then they put a cord round Thecla’s waist, which bound also her feet, and with it tied her to the bulls, to whose privy-parts they applied red-hot irons, that so they being the more tormented, might more violently drag Thecla about, till they had killed her.

13 The bulls accordingly tore about, making a most hideous noise; but the flame which was about Thecla, burnt off the cords which were fastened to the members of the bulls, and she stood in the middle of the stage, as unconcerned as if she had not been bound.

14 But in the mean time Trifina, who sat upon one of the benches, fainted away and died; upon which the whole city was under a very great concern.

15 And Alexander himself was afraid, and desired the governor, saying: I entreat you, take compassion on me and the city, and release this woman, who has fought with the beasts; lest, both you and I, and the whole city be destroyed

16 For if Cæsar should have any account of what has passed now, he will certainly immediately destroy the city, because Trifina, a person of royal extract, and a relation of his, is dead upon her seat.

A REAL FEMINIST

17 Upon this the governor called Thecla from among the beasts to him, and said to her, Who art thou? and what are thy circumstances, that not one of the beasts will touch thee?

18 Thecla replied to him; I am a servant of the living God; and as to my state, I am a believer on Jesus Christ his Son, in whom God is well pleased; and for that reason none of the beasts could touch me.

19 He alone is the way to eternal salvation, and the foundation of eternal life. He is a refuge to those who are in distress; a support to the afflicted, hope and defence to those who are hopeless; and, in a word, all those who do not believe on him, shall not live, but suffer eternal death.

20 When the govern or heard these things, he ordered her clothes to be brought, and said to her put on your clothes.

21 Thecla replied: May that God who clothed me when I was naked among the beasts, in the day of judgment clothe your soul with the robe of salvation. Then she took her clothes, and put them on; and the governor immediately published an order in these words; I release to you Thecla the servant of God.

22 Upon which the women cried out together with a loud voice, and with one accord gave praise unto God, and said; There is but one God, who is the God

of Thecla; the one God who delivered Thecla.

Read the entire story because it is fascinating.

https://www.sacred-texts.com/bib/lbob/lbob14.htm

~ Fallen Star ~

Confessing a true love

For all who would attend

A testimony of your faith

Appears in all the land

Posted in a copyright

And written on your hand

Only He knows your intent

A mirror reflects an image

Absent of its soul

Just an empty vessel

An empty shell plasterd in barnacles

Disguised as golden medals of a war

Yes, a solider of discord

An oath made in secret

In uncertainties as a dedication to our Lord

All your Plastic words

Are boldly typed in Braille

As a record of your greatness

In honor to our Lord

A bright illumination

For those who may be bored

Or

maybe

Just

Another

fallen

star…

In the

Army

Of

discord

Finding Truth with Zen Garcia

I would like to introduce you to new way of finding truth with Zen Garcia, author and publisher of several books (20+) of ancient theologies with esoteric topics such as:
The Gnostics ; apocryphal scriptures; Lost Books Of The Bible; The Forgotten Books Of Eden; The Dead Sea Scrolls and more…

With skillfull articulation, Zen demonstrates how we have been manipulated from the beginning by comparing lost books of bible with the KJV bible to confirm their validity with elaboration.

Zen has spent many years meticulously researching various historical theologies. His findings of truth are astounding and as a direct result, has encountered opposition and ridicule not, only from the secular side but, the religious side as well.

Truth can be threatening to those who stand to gain without it.
In opposition, it would be unbearable to those who are unwilling to accept that they have been beguiled.

With fine articulation, Zen demonstrates how we have been manipulated from the beginning and the enemies agenda and explains how to endeavor freedom one compelling page at a time.

But, let me warn you first.
This information is for Truth seekers only.
If you are unwilling to embrace truth this is not the place for you.

I’ll share my story from the beginning when I first discovered the truth with Zen Garcia to explain why it’s neccessary to be ready to receive the truth.

My story,

It was almost two years ago that I had stumbled upon Zen; I believe it was by divine intervention. I was desperately searching for truth for many years when one morning I felt compelled to search, once more.
I turned on YouTube and discovered Zen.
He was discussing vaccinations with Laurel Austin, who has done in-depth studies on vaccines, and is a wellness writer and co-host for Zen Garcia.
I was stunned as I listened to their experiences, and their expertise as they examined these controversial issues with such tenacity.

I was convinced and inspired. Over the next few days I had watched as many of Zen’s YouTube videos as possible.
Including several topics and books that Zen had written:
“A Different Way of Being, Lucifer – Father of Cain, Awaken to the NWO, Sons of God: Who We Are Why We Are Here, Skyfalll- Angels of Destiny., The Aramaic Targum, and, The Flat Earth as Key to Decrypt the Book of Enoch.”

As I pondered all that I had learned, I became overwhelmed
I sat alone in silence and cried. I was angry and I came to the conclusion that everything I had ever learned was a lie, I discovered that the religious institutions as, well as our educational systems, were nothing more than a great deception. Their goal was to dumb us down and indoctrinate us in order to divide and conquer.
I wanted to scream to illustrate my burden but, there weren’t any words to describe how I felt.

I felt as though I had lived my entire life in a dreamland and then awakened to live the final nightmare!
I discovered the plans of the elite and how they had controlled us, what their wicked plans were, and how easily manipulated I was.
The thought of it all left me broken but not defeated!

I knew I could no longer sleep nor dream their visions and with no other alternative but to face reality, I surrendered…

For the first time I opened my eyes and saw a new world unfamiliar yet meaningful, hopeless now hopeful; moreover ,
I found the truth with my Savior, the Son of YHWH, Yeshua the one and only true living God.💕

Morning came and I began my journey of a thousand miles down the rabbit hole with Zen Garcia and Yesuah as our guide.

It was then that I discovered; nightmares only happen when you close your eyes.

“With eyes wide open” only now was I able to see that nothing was and, nothing is, what it appears to be. And the God that I never understood; I was beginning to understand.

So I chose to embrace truth and…

Endeavor

Freedom

Eyes

Wide

Open

With

Yahweh

and

Zen

Garcia

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Books http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/zengarcia

Zen Garcia Endeavor Freedom on Youtube

YOU WERE ALWAYS WITH ME

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Even when I was gone

I knew you were there

You loved me in absolute silence

Waiting for me to surrender

Watching in rose colored glasses as I willfully sank into the stormy seas

The life raft seemed so far away

Blinded by what I could not see

WHEN THE SON OF MAN SHALL COME

Matthew 25:31-46

31 When the Son of man shall come in his glory, and all the holy angels with him, then shall he sit upon the throne of his glory:

32 And before him shall be gathered all nations: and he shall separate them one from another, as a shepherd divideth his sheep from the goats:

33 And he shall set the sheep on his right hand, but the goats on the left.

34 Then shall the King say unto them on his right hand, Come, ye blessed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world:

35 For I was an hungred, and ye gave me meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me drink: I was a stranger, and ye took me in:

36 Naked, and ye clothed me: I was sick, and ye visited me: I was in prison, and ye came unto me.

37 Then shall the righteous answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, and fed thee? or thirsty, and gave thee drink?

38 When saw we thee a stranger, and took thee in? or naked, and clothed thee?

39 Or when saw we thee sick, or in prison, and came unto thee?

40 And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.

41 Then shall he say also unto them on the left hand, Depart from me, ye cursed, into everlasting fire, prepared for the devil and his angels:

42 For I was an hungred, and ye gave me no meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me no drink:

43 I was a stranger, and ye took me not in: naked, and ye clothed me not: sick, and in prison, and ye visited me not.

44 Then shall they also answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, or athirst, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and did not minister unto thee?

45 Then shall he answer them, saying, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these, ye did it not to me.

46 And these shall go away into everlasting punishment: but the righteous into life eternal.

DREAMS~°•○●☆~

DREAMS

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I fell asleep one night.

I fell deep unto my dream,

in a place absent of time.

When your heart was free and your spirit was kind.

Serenity and peace set you apart.

I became frozen in place in time, absent of meaning, transparent hearts of plastic that gave me the ability to see truth but not feel it.

Frightened, I screamed!

I awoke, only to find a mirrored reflection of someone I used to know.

Dreams, what do they mean…