It once gave you the wings to fly, then it took away your sky.

A need to survive.

The sky mirrors as a witness of your trials alone, on nights so dark they must not be shown.

All the tears you cried in silence.

All the pain you ever felt.

And all the isolation you had endured, even the times you wept, afraid and, alone.

My only wish was that your pain be mine.

I’m sorry I can’t turn back the time.

You were frozen by fear that you’d succeed but afraid you would crumble if you failed.

The heaviness you could not bear and the weight of it all broke you.

My heart hurts to remember but I cannot forget.

Falling and not knowing who would catch you, not knowing when HE warned.

Your fight was fought by you alone but little did you know God had already calmed your storm.

There were times you stumbled out of control.

And times that you really wanted to know.

Your spirit kept seeking light from the storm.

Obsidian Skies became a clue

That it might be a time to turn anew.

Its time for you to realize

God has given YOU back your sky.
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I love you my beautiful daughter forever and always ❤

Unconditionally 💜


This apocrypha is an extraordinary story and has inspired me greatly. The power of Jesus, the Son of God and the only true living God is shown in this wonderful apocrypha.

This story details, in my opinion, what a real feminist is. Her strength, courage and integrity could only come from a life devoted to God. Please read it in its entirety from the 1st. Chapter. Link below.


1 Thecla thrown naked to the wild beasts; 2 they all refuse to attack her; 8 throws herself into a pit of water. 10 other wild beasts refuse her. 11 Tied to wild bulls. 13 Miraculously saved. 15 Released. 24 Entertained by Trifina.

THEN Thecla was taken out of the hand of Trifina, stripped naked, had a girdle put on, and thrown into the place appointed for fighting with the beasts: and the lions and the bears were let loose upon her.

2 But a she-lion, which was of all the most fierce, ran to Thecla, and fell down at her feet. Upon which the multitude of women shouted aloud.

3 Then a she-bear ran fiercely towards her; but the she-lion met the bear, and tore it to pieces.

4 Again, a he-lion, who had been wont to devour men, and which belonged to Alexander, ran towards her; but the she-lion encountered the he-lion, and they killed each other.

5 Then the women were under a greater concern, because the she-lion, which had helped Thecla, was dead.

6 Afterwards they brought out many other wild beasts; but Thecla stood with her hands stretched towards heaven, and prayed; and when she had done praying, she turned about, and saw a pit of water, and said, Now it is a proper time for me to be baptized.

7 Accordingly she threw herself into the water, and said, In thy name, O my Lord Jesus Christ, I am this last day baptized. The women and the people seeing this, cried out, and said, Do not throw yourself into the water. And the governor himself cried out, to think that the fish (sea-calves) were like to devour so much beauty.

8 ¶ Notwithstanding all this, Thecla threw herself into the water, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

9 But the fish (sea-calves,) when they saw the lighting and fire, were killed, and swam dead upon the surface of the water, and a cloud of fire surrounded

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Thecla, so that as the beasts could not come near her, so the people could not see her nakedness.

10 Yet they turned other wild beasts upon her; upon which they made a very mournful outcry; and some of them scattered spikenard, others cassia, others amomus (a sort of spikenard, or the herb of Jerusalem, or ladies-rose) others ointment; so that the quantity of ointment was large, in proportion to the number of people; and upon this all the beasts lay as though they had been fast asleep, and did not touch Thecla.

11 Whereupon Alexander said to the Governor, I have some very terrible bulls; let us bind her to them. To which the governor, with concern, replied, You may do what you think fit.

12 Then they put a cord round Thecla’s waist, which bound also her feet, and with it tied her to the bulls, to whose privy-parts they applied red-hot irons, that so they being the more tormented, might more violently drag Thecla about, till they had killed her.

13 The bulls accordingly tore about, making a most hideous noise; but the flame which was about Thecla, burnt off the cords which were fastened to the members of the bulls, and she stood in the middle of the stage, as unconcerned as if she had not been bound.

14 But in the mean time Trifina, who sat upon one of the benches, fainted away and died; upon which the whole city was under a very great concern.

15 And Alexander himself was afraid, and desired the governor, saying: I entreat you, take compassion on me and the city, and release this woman, who has fought with the beasts; lest, both you and I, and the whole city be destroyed

16 For if Cæsar should have any account of what has passed now, he will certainly immediately destroy the city, because Trifina, a person of royal extract, and a relation of his, is dead upon her seat.


17 Upon this the governor called Thecla from among the beasts to him, and said to her, Who art thou? and what are thy circumstances, that not one of the beasts will touch thee?

18 Thecla replied to him; I am a servant of the living God; and as to my state, I am a believer on Jesus Christ his Son, in whom God is well pleased; and for that reason none of the beasts could touch me.

19 He alone is the way to eternal salvation, and the foundation of eternal life. He is a refuge to those who are in distress; a support to the afflicted, hope and defence to those who are hopeless; and, in a word, all those who do not believe on him, shall not live, but suffer eternal death.

20 When the govern or heard these things, he ordered her clothes to be brought, and said to her put on your clothes.

21 Thecla replied: May that God who clothed me when I was naked among the beasts, in the day of judgment clothe your soul with the robe of salvation. Then she took her clothes, and put them on; and the governor immediately published an order in these words; I release to you Thecla the servant of God.

22 Upon which the women cried out together with a loud voice, and with one accord gave praise unto God, and said; There is but one God, who is the God

of Thecla; the one God who delivered Thecla.

Read the entire story because it is fascinating.

Happy Mothers Day Mom | iblogstr8sicit’s Blog by Donna Bowles, Brown

Happy Mothers Day Mom I Miss You….

My mother,
How she made everything
Beautiful and new.

Her smile lit up every room.

Her kindness, and unfailing love, always took away my gloom.

I miss you mom with my heart and soul.

Your fragrance fills the air with all the stories that you told…

Never, in the entire world would there be a mother with your heart of gold.

It’s seems like only yesterday I would kneel by you at night and pray…

Our trips to the ocean shore, a lunch for two, and the taste of that salty breeze, as though it was only yesterday, just you and me…

Oh mother, how I miss you so…
I just wished that we could be together just once more…

The day will come when we will be in heaven with our Father forevermore; your smile I cannot wait to see…

Until that day, I’ll hold on tight to my dreams of past and when HE comes and unites us once again

But, for now, I do regret, another Mother’s Day must end…

May God be with you till we meet again…

Happy Mother’s Day my precious Mom…I ❤ you…

Anticipation ~°•○●

One Nation under God chooses fear as opposed to morality… 

Tears fall on window panes…

Eyes absent of vision through a clouded window endures for but a moment in-between the storms and the rain..

Only a few can see and feel the heaviness in colors, black, blue, and melancholy… for you.

Some anticipate the sound of the trumpet…

Others refuse to believe…

Regardless, everything will soon change…


When Everything You Feel is So Unreal

When Everything seems so Unreal and you can’t find your way home…

Remember that this world is only temporary and you’re only passing through…

Your home is where your heart lives and mine lives through HIM…


























~Arizona sunset~

Last night I was driving

Against a most lovely storm

Silhouetted by the sunset


Rendering  hope


As the sunset found serenity


In the midst of the storm


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~Tonights nightmare~


I was awakened in the night

By roars of monstrous sounds

Pounding over my pillow

Crashing through my skies

Rendered thoughts…no…no…no

It cannot be time

I heard boots marching

Choppers thundering

Screams of innocence

It is too late to run

But somehow I knew

It wasn’t to late to fly

I covered my head

I said a prayer

I tried to make believe

it was only a dream

But I knew it was the final nightmare

So I believed that I could fly

As I had  practiced many times

In my dreams throughout my life

My memories gave me faith

Faith became light

Light became hope

Hope became courage

Courage became wings

That lifted me up above

All the cries of Humanity

And all that refused to fly

All death that was smitten

By those who came

To kill steal and destroy

One will be taken

And one will be left…


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~Help them Father~


If I cry out in Your Name

Would You hear my burden

And take away their pain

Only You know what they’ve been through

Will You hold and protect them

Your mercy I know it’s true

I need a miracle this very hour

Grant them a vision

So they might see

The love they long for is endless in Thee

Touch their hearts and heal their minds

The price You paid was not in vain

You conquered death

So that they might live

I cannot watch them die another day
Father I lay them in Your arms

With my one last breath

I turn my head and walk away

My thoughts…

“I understand now how You felt…”


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The only time you truly loose…


Is when you give up.
There are moments, sometimes hours, and at times, days that I feel like I can’t, or maybe that I don’t want to continue to do the things I love, and I feel like giving up.

I know this mindset is nothing but a self-defeating attitude that is a result of looking back at my life, and wishing that I would have done things differently.

I have said it before, and I’ll say it again, for a self confirmation in order to rid myself of pride and futile thoughts.
“I give up all hope of having a better past.” There.
“Now, I must do the thing I think I cannot do.” Eleanor Roosevelt-

The only one thing that I know to be effective at times like these, is to make a gratitude list for everything I have, and forget about everything I want.

My serenity is directly proportional to my ability to, “Accept the things I cannot change, and the courage to change the things I can.” –Bill W.-

I won’t give up, I will continue to be present in my life, and love myself, in spite of myself.
I pray that His will be done, refusing mine.
True serenity is to find peace in the midst of the storm.

I’m grateful that I am willing to see that I’m stuck, and I am able to take action in order to rid myself, of self.
I will never give up on love.
GOD help me this day.


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