IT MAY BE TIME TO RECOVER YOUR SKY

It once gave you the wings to fly, then it took away your sky.

A need to survive.

The sky mirrors as a witness of your trials alone, on nights so dark they must not be shown.

All the tears you cried in silence.

All the pain you ever felt.

And all the isolation you had endured, even the times you wept, afraid and, alone.

My only wish was that your pain be mine.

I’m sorry I can’t turn back the time.

You were frozen by fear that you’d succeed but afraid you would crumble if you failed.

The heaviness you could not bear and the weight of it all broke you.

My heart hurts to remember but I cannot forget.

Falling and not knowing who would catch you, not knowing when He warned.

Your fight was fought by you alone but little did you know God had already calmed your storm.

There were times that you stumbled out of control.

And times that you really wanted to know.

Your spirit kept seeking light from the storm.

Obsidian Skies became a clue

That it may be a time to turn anew.

Its time for you to realize

God has given you back your sky.

So fly…
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[by Donna Brown Bowles (C) 2014] revised 11/18/2019

I love you my beautiful daughter forever and always ❤

Unconditionally 💜

Water Color Tears

Sometimes memories of you fall out of my eyes and roll down my cheeks…

Happy Mothers Day Mom | iblogstr8sicit’s Blog by Donna Bowles, Brown

Happy Mothers Day Mom I Miss You.

My mother,
How she made everything
Beautiful and new.

Her smile lit up every room.

Her kindness, and unfailing love, always took away my gloom.

I miss you mom with my heart and soul.

Your fragrance fills the air with all the stories that you told.

It’s seems like only yesterday I would kneel by you at night and pray.

Our trips to the ocean shore, a lunch for two, and the taste of that salty breeze, as though it was only yesterday, just you and me.

Oh mother, how I miss you so.

I just wished that we could be together just once more.

The day will come when we will meet again.

In heaven with our Father forevermore.

Your smile I cannot wait to see.

Until that day, I’ll hold on tight to all my dreams.

But, for now, I do regret, another Mother’s Day must end.

May God be with you till we meet again.

Happy Mother’s Day

My precious Mom…I ❤ you…

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Anticipation ~°•○●

One Nation under God chooses fear as opposed to morality… 

Tears fall on window panes…

Eyes absent of vision through a clouded window endures for but a moment in-between the storms and the rain..

Only a few can see and feel the heaviness in colors, black, blue, and melancholy… for you.

Some anticipate the sound of the trumpet…

Others refuse to believe…

Regardless, everything will soon change…

AWAKE; IT’S TIME…

When Everything You Feel is So Unreal

When Everything seems so Unreal and you can’t find your way home…

Remember that this world is only temporary and you’re only passing through…

Your home is where your heart lives and mine lives through HIM…

Just

Feel

The

Soft

Cool

Caress

Of

The

Breeze

And

Know

It

Is

He

And

Believe

Just

Believe…

And

His

Spirit

You

Will

Receive

Infinitely…

Today ~°•○☆~

It’s an extraordinary day to be alive…

We must have faith which brings us hope…

We must continue look up, for HE is  coming soon…

My only desire is to be with you Father…

I don’t feel comfortable in this world anymore…

And I miss my mom…

Broken ~°•○●☆~

Yet not defeated….

American made…

Never give up…

~Arizona sunset~

Last night I was driving

Against a most lovely storm

Silhouetted by the sunset

Rendering  hope

As the sunset found serenity

In the midst of the storm

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[by Dawna Bowles (C)2014]

~Tonights nightmare~

I was awakened in the night

By roars of monstrous sounds

Pounding over my pillow

Crashing through my skies

Rendered thoughts…no…no…no

It cannot be time

I heard boots marching

Choppers thundering

Screams of innocence

It is too late to run

But somehow I knew

It wasn’t to late to fly

I covered my head

I said a prayer

I tried to make believe

it was only a dream

But I knew it was the final nightmare

So I believed that I could fly

As I had  practiced many times

In my dreams throughout my life

My memories gave me faith

Faith became light

Light became hope

Hope became courage

Courage became wings

That lifted me up above

All the cries of Humanity

And all that refused to fly

All death that was smitten

By those who came

To kill steal and destroy

One will be taken

And one will be left…

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~Help them Father~

If I cry out in Your Name

Would You hear my burden

And take away their pain

Only You know what they’ve been through

Will You hold and protect them

Your mercy I know it’s true

I need a miracle this very hour

Grant them a vision

So they might see

The love they long for is endless in Thee

Touch their hearts and heal their minds

The price You paid was not in vain

You conquered death

So that they might live

I cannot watch them die another day
Father I lay them in Your arms

With my one last breath

I turn my head and walk away

My thoughts…

“I understand now how You felt…”

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[by Dawna Bowles (C)2014]

DESTINY

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DESTINY

Awakened in a dream.

A reminiscence of lapsed time.

A mirrored reflection.

When summer lasted for years.

Wild flowers in fields of gold.

Reflecting all the stories told.

Vivid rainbows after a storm.

A promise to all who had known..

When the sun out shined the winters cold.

When I had the wings to fly.

Clouds began to cry.

Alone, their tears fell.

Then they took away my sky.

Pain cut deep within my soul.

In preparation for my journey that lied ahead.

It is my road alone.

I must trudge in isolation.

A road less travelled.

A destiny till my end.

God, will You hold my hand?

~Donna Brown Bowles (C)

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[by Donna Bowles (C)2014]

The only time you truly loose…

Is when you give up.
There are moments, sometimes hours, and at times, days that I feel like I can’t, or maybe that I don’t want to continue to do the things I love, and I feel like giving up.

I know this mindset is nothing but a self-defeating attitude that is a result of looking back at my life, and wishing that I would have done things differently.

I have said it before, and I’ll say it again, for a self confirmation in order to rid myself of pride and futile thoughts.
“I give up all hope of having a better past.” There.
“Now, I must do the thing I think I cannot do.” –Eleanor Roosevelt-

The only one thing that I know to be effective at times like these, is to make a gratitude list for everything I have, and forget about everything I want.

My serenity is directly proportional to my ability to, “Accept the things I cannot change, and the courage to change the things I can.” –Bill W.-

I won’t give up, I will continue to be present in my life, and love myself, in spite of myself.
I pray that His will be done, refusing mine.
True serenity is to find peace in the midst of the storm.

I’m grateful that I am willing to see that I’m stuck, and I am able to take action in order to rid myself, of self.
I will never give up on love.
GOD help me this day.
Dawnasong

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Never give up

“I have not failed,  I’ve just found 10,000 ways that won’t work.”

Thomas A. Edison

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[by Dawna Bowles (C)2014]

Look inside your heart

Candice you’re so precious…

The most talented girl in the world

I know you are blind to your beauty

Only if you could see yourself through my eyes…

Do not bury your talents they exceed all the best

The world was never created for anyone as beautiful as you.

May you stay forever young.

Forever Young”

May God bless and keep you always
May your wishes all come true
May you always do for others
And let others do for you
May you build a ladder to the stars
And climb on every rung
May you stay forever young
Forever young, forever young
May you stay forever young.

May you grow up to be righteous
May you grow up to be true
May you always know the truth
And see the lights surrounding you
May you always be courageous
Stand upright and be strong
May you stay forever young
Forever young, forever young
May you stay forever young.

May your hands always be busy
May your feet always be swift
May you have a strong foundation
When the winds of changes shift
May your heart always be joyful
And may your song always be sung
May you stay forever young
Forever young, forever young
May you stay forever young.
(By Bob Dylan)

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[by Dawna Bowles (C)2014]

Je ťaime Fille

Family is forever!

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[by Dawna Bowles (C)2014]

Failure

Allow them not to take failure as a measure of their worth but as a chance for a new start. ( The great Wizard of Oz)

3:10 to Yuma

LOVE IS JUST A WORD…

This last year I made a decision and commitment to learn more about what love is and how it could be applicable in my life.
I was spiritually, and emotionally bankrupt, which left me feeling empty. I knew something had to change. I was desperate for change.
I’d like to share a little of what I have learned and am still learning, for it has made an enormous difference in my life.

I saw this cartoon on F/B. It was a good reminder of what I want for my life.

Love is just a word that requires action. Without the action it’s a lie.

If I love someone, regardless of any adverse situation that may occure,  I must act from integrity, responsibility , morality and not my emotions/heart.
When I’m angry I’m incapable of feeling love, therefore I’m incapable of giving and receiving love.
Love isn’t always feeling good. If that were the case the divorce rate would drop considerably!

It’s about growing, giving and loving unconditionally. (& A LOT MORE)

I’m practicing love with my family, friends and myself by doing the next right thing.
This is new for me and I haven’t perfected it  by any means; however,  I am willing to learn, grow and live along spiritual lines.
We are spiritual beings having a human experience. 
Love is just a word that needs a verb. :]💕
[By Dawna Bowles (C)2014]

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[by Dawna (C)2014]

SON

You are always on my mind…

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[by Dawna Bowles (C)2014]

THE GREATEST YEARS OF MY LIFE

Write about your strongest memory of heart-pounding belly-twisting nervousness: what caused the adrenaline? Was it justified? How did you respond?

      It was February 7th 1996 my life was empty cold and dark. I had hit bottom. My drinking was out of control. I wanted to feel again, love again, live again. I had nothing but emptiness in my weary soul. I asked a friend if she could help me for if I had to go on living in this misery,  I would prefer death.

She took my hand and told me if I wanted to live that I should attend an Alcoholic Anonymous meeting. 

I choose to live that day. I remember driving alone to the meeting so afraid that my entire body was shaking, for my adrenaline was pounding so hard I could barely walk up the five steps to the door.

I made it ( by the grace of God/Positive – Energy) I opened the door and there must have been 1000 eyes intently looking through my soul.

I cried all the way through the meeting for everyone was telling my story. They were different stories but the same feelings of hopelessness, shame, regret then hope. 

They all spoke of how they had overcome this disease of addiction,  they all had a bright light in their new eyes that they were given as a result of working the twelve steps of the program. 

These people were so wonderful.  The took me under their wings and loved me until I could love myself.

I was amazed before I was half way through. I was 6 months sober when a job offer took my family and I to Japan. I celebrated my first year of sobriety in Yokoskua Japan.

That was the absolute best year of my entire life! God/Positive Energy had done for me what I could not do for myself.  I have been rocketed into a fourth dimension of existence I had never dreamed possible.

There is hope for anyone that wants to live, love and dream again. 

~I~

Came too

Came to listen

Came to believe :~}

 

My Son My Sun

Where did you hide my son of life
Your talent is clouded by burdens
Your goodness is great you must
avoid strife
Wake up open your spiritual eyes
The clouds have parted so you can fly
Amidst the clouds the sun has come
Can you see the light
You no longer have to hide nor run
Come home my son
I love you….

Where am I?

I have looked forever, but I cannot see, can you help me find what’s inside of me? My eyes are open as I look up, I see the stars but there is no light. Can you help me stop the fight. Running madly with all my might! Insisting daylight turns to night, quickly grasp the spectrum s light, snap the picture, and stop the fight, rainbows light protects and shields diminish my night

If Only I Could Sea

If only I could wake up from this endless sleep

I would run to the ocean with only bare feet

Tapping toes on salted shores

In hopes my feet would finally meet yours

If only I could fly in my sleep

I would soar through the sky finding you

We’d be two seagulls you and I

If only my mouth would not be shut

I would sing my song and truly live

Then together we would be

If only only I could wake from this endless night

I would paint brilliant rainbows to brighten up our skies

If my sleep would render my ears to listen

I would hear your heart and realize I was loved beyond reason

If only my eyes would open

My sun would rise

And give me vision

With love revealed it would be my guide

Expelling darkness and all the lies

Surrounded forever by endless colors

Oh my love, just believe

Wake up with me and take my hand

We will dance together barefoot in the sand

Knowing we’re ment to be

Endeavoring freedom

Together we’ll see

True love

Indefinitely

Donna Brown Bowles (C)